Self Talk

I told you ….you can’t take it away, not you nor any one else……it is at times like these that my eyes rebel and act stubborn and become self sufficient to do what ever they desire.

How can you tell me how much I should love you…or who deserves my love more than you. I am giving those what they deserve, in the quantity that they require and they seem to be happy in that.

I have learned to live with a constant longing and pain in my heart…a bitter sweet feeling that kills me each night when I lie down to sleep and don’t find you next to me. I have given up on that wish now…or maybe not….maybe I can never stop wishing for you.

I am young still and still can reach out to you…you are still a phone call away….my biggest fear is how will I part with this life if I am on my death bed and you either don’t find out or can’t make it.

I had promised myself to live and die in your arms.

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Category: Ramblings